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Good Friday to Easter Sunday

It's Easter Sunday today! The day before yesterday, it was Good Friday. This concludes the 40 Days Fast and Pray event that took place in Acts Church. This is the first Fast And Pray event that I really took seriously. I didn't manage to keep up with the schedule all the time, but as much as I could, I gave my best. I wanted God to know I was serious about this. About seeking Him intently during this period. There were times when I failed. I just couldn't keep up. There were times I was just plain lazy. There were times I procrastinated. But I managed to get thru it. Praise God.

Anyways, I got 2 testimonies to share! But I'll do it soon. Very pressed for time at the moment. But stay tuned for God's wonders in my life:)

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"Blurry"

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

.....

i hate liars!

revenge is bitter

sighz....
revenge is sweet to the tongue...but bitter when it reaches the guts.
y is this? i always thought revenge is sweet.
but when i actually get my hands dirty, the euphoria lasts only for a moment, before guilt takes on over and i feel so rotten. y dun i relish the victory of deceit? y dun i feel the joyful madness of a madmen before, he disintegrates?

y do i give in to my darker self? y can't i hold back my tongue, or thoughts, or my actions?
i just want to hide...i want to run away...from everyone...from myself especially.

how have i fallen? how far have i fallen?
from the walls of glory to the trenches of my own failure.

i hate myself.

the monster in me

the monster in me
is the reflection of you
i've scared my ownself
as the ugly beast sticks it's head out
of my heart
the monster is me
what have i become??

me

i wanna scream!!! my heads bursting with fear....fear of the future....i wanna run away now! run , and keep running, don't stop running.....this is the me that i feel rite now....the me that has lost someone..the me that is starting to taste the irony of hate....the me that is forlorn and blown away.......this life......sighz!